9:42 am blood sugar 129 (Yeah you read that right!!)
10:00 am Breakfast (cottage cheese and two cups of coffee with sweet and low)
Wow!! Yea I can NOT believe it myself! 129 is a great improvement for me! That is over one hundred points lower then usual. I have no idea what I did differently. Other then went to bed early ha ha ha. Well whatever works.
I didnt blog this weekend. Life got in the way. Broken water heater, haircuts and just spending time with the kids. It was a great weekend. But truth time. Went to Louigi's on Saturday. Yeah I ate some pasta but not enough to throw me back too much. But no sugar sodas or sweets. Maybe Jenn was right, maybe I did drink to many sodas. I still drink a couple a day but diet soda! DId you know... that their is a diet cherry dr. pepper. OMG sooo good.
Should we talk about the no smoking for a minute. I would rather not but yeah not doing so good with that. I am trying and no longer smoking a pack a day but still smoke two or three a day. A couple puffs at a time. I am not giving up just struggling a bit. A down side to not smoking is I can now smell everything. Where food smells and taste so much better.... our dog has ruined my carpets. Shampooing is no longer helping. I have a serious love hate relationship with that dog. I love her but hate what she is doing to my carpets so I guess time to go to wood flooring. Which I wanted to do anyway but I just hate spending money! But I will do the work myself. Part of my deal with Kris, I can do what I want but I have to do it. I always agree to this 'cause ummm I will start it and he will finish it. He just can't help himself ha ha ha.
Well the kids are certainly onboard with my eating healthy. They haven't complained once. They are loving the veggies and new meat recipes. They really don't miss the carbs much. Kris hasn't complained either. I thank the lord the are not really picky eaters. Last night for dinner I braised some ribs and blanched some Haricot Vert which I then sauted with in a bit of butter with onions and garlic. Ticky was not having it at first but then when he tasted it, he said, "that's damn good". They like it all once they taste it.
On a different note, this week between coupons and price match I was able to get Betty Crooker fruit smacks for $0.49 a box so I stocked up on them. Not the best snack you might think but compare it to a fun size candy bar and tell me then it ain't a good idea! I am trying to teach my kids that eating right will keep them from having the issues I now have.
I hope you all have a blessed day thank you so much for continuing to read and be strength for me and my family. love and hugs to all.
Barb
Monday, February 18, 2013
Thursday, February 14, 2013
Sorry all no blog today. It is Valentine's Day and I spent the day making Valentines with my kiddos. No chocolates, cakes or candies for me. I asked to not be given anything this year. My birthday is coming up and I want a very specific gift. A tripod for my camera. That is all.
My morning numbers were still high my afternoon around the 190's. I am working on them I promise.
I will be more specific tomorrow. Today was for me and kids, who swore today was the best day ever. They gave to everyone.
God bless everyone
Barb
My morning numbers were still high my afternoon around the 190's. I am working on them I promise.
I will be more specific tomorrow. Today was for me and kids, who swore today was the best day ever. They gave to everyone.
God bless everyone
Barb
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
Death by Coca Cola.... 2 gallons a day???
9:18 am Blood glucose reading 234 (again??)
9:22 am 60 units 70/30
9:35 am 1 tablespoon peant butter and cup of coffee black w/ sweet and low.
Not hungry today! Feeling Yucky. Like I am getting a cold yucky. Not many cravings this morning. Haven't thought about a cigarette till just now LOL. Not that I want one just remembering that a couple days ago I was a smoker. I hope I have this feeling all day!
Read a very interesting article today. A woman in New Zealand died from her two gallon a day habit of drinking Coca Cola! WOW! I can't even imagine that much soda! EEEwww right? Two gallons a day and 8 kids! I guess she had to do something with that sugar rush. Here is a link to the story in case you find this way to hard to believe LOL.
http://www.nbcnews.com/id/50796346/ns/health-health_care/
Yesterday evening I had that starving feeling again. So i ate broccoli. Lots of broccoli. I guess it worked cause I sure don't feel hungry today.
So I have to admit something to you all. I messed up and I messed up big time. I visited my friend next door. She offered me a can of a product called manzanita (apple) drink. I thought it was like a juice thingie.. half way threw the can I decided to look at the label.. 42 grams of carbs and 42 grams of sugar! Of course I regret my decision to drink before I looked at the label and I will not ever drink it again. NO I didn't finish it either. The kids loved it. I can understand why it was wonderful! Last night in a moment of weakness I called Kris, my husband and asked him to bring a gallon of milk and a Dr. Pepper. He loves me and if i ask he will bring it. God bless him he is a good guy. By the end of the call I told him nevermind I didn't need the soda. Well God bless him some more when he got home he brought me a bottle of Dt. Dr. Pepper! OH it tasted like manna from heaven I imagine.
I had a blast visiting with neighbor! We talk and laugh. Not once did I think about sneaking across the street for a cigarette. That was a first. My neighbor has been a wonderful support to me. She watches my kids while I go to Dr's appts. Or if I need a rest. She is a shoulder to cry on. I have to admit life is much sweeter with good friends.
Anyway, all is good today. Whatever works right??
Love to all, For my Catholic friends Happy Lenten Season and God bless everyone!
Barb
9:22 am 60 units 70/30
9:35 am 1 tablespoon peant butter and cup of coffee black w/ sweet and low.
Not hungry today! Feeling Yucky. Like I am getting a cold yucky. Not many cravings this morning. Haven't thought about a cigarette till just now LOL. Not that I want one just remembering that a couple days ago I was a smoker. I hope I have this feeling all day!
Read a very interesting article today. A woman in New Zealand died from her two gallon a day habit of drinking Coca Cola! WOW! I can't even imagine that much soda! EEEwww right? Two gallons a day and 8 kids! I guess she had to do something with that sugar rush. Here is a link to the story in case you find this way to hard to believe LOL.
http://www.nbcnews.com/id/50796346/ns/health-health_care/
Yesterday evening I had that starving feeling again. So i ate broccoli. Lots of broccoli. I guess it worked cause I sure don't feel hungry today.
So I have to admit something to you all. I messed up and I messed up big time. I visited my friend next door. She offered me a can of a product called manzanita (apple) drink. I thought it was like a juice thingie.. half way threw the can I decided to look at the label.. 42 grams of carbs and 42 grams of sugar! Of course I regret my decision to drink before I looked at the label and I will not ever drink it again. NO I didn't finish it either. The kids loved it. I can understand why it was wonderful! Last night in a moment of weakness I called Kris, my husband and asked him to bring a gallon of milk and a Dr. Pepper. He loves me and if i ask he will bring it. God bless him he is a good guy. By the end of the call I told him nevermind I didn't need the soda. Well God bless him some more when he got home he brought me a bottle of Dt. Dr. Pepper! OH it tasted like manna from heaven I imagine.
I had a blast visiting with neighbor! We talk and laugh. Not once did I think about sneaking across the street for a cigarette. That was a first. My neighbor has been a wonderful support to me. She watches my kids while I go to Dr's appts. Or if I need a rest. She is a shoulder to cry on. I have to admit life is much sweeter with good friends.
Anyway, all is good today. Whatever works right??
Love to all, For my Catholic friends Happy Lenten Season and God bless everyone!
Barb
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
Wicked Dreams and Bret Micheals
10:00 am Morning Blood Glucose 237 (what the hell??)
10:15 am Breakfast two scrambled eggs with cheese
I had a good day for the most part yesterday. In the evening I got a little crazy. I had to chicken fajitas and instead of tortilla I wrapped them in lettuce but I still had that super hungry feeling. I will admit I was a bitch on wheels! I bet it was more desire for a cigarette then hunger. I ate a lemon with salt. That can't be too bad for my blood sugar right? I was told to eat a small snack before I go to bed to keep my body from thinking it is starving and prevent it from producing more sugar... oh hell I can't even pretend I know what all that means!! So I drank some wal mart brand v-8 kinda stuff. Maybe 4 ounces. But I guess it was not right cause ummm 237 for the morning is really high. They want it around 112.
So I got pissed off. I felt hungry and still I have a high reading? Maybe I need more exercise at night? If anyone has a clue please let me know!
I finally got to sleep around midnight. That is when the "fun" started. The dreams were amazing, weird, fun, and just plain old odd at times. So vivid I actually woke up sure I was married to Bret Micheals from Poison. Wasn't he in Poison? He isn't even my celebrity crush but oh well he is still hot when he isn't wearing eyeliner. THAT'S IT!!!! When I have a craving for a cigarette or food, I will just imagine kissing a guy wearing eyeliner! That will upset my stomach and I won't want to eat or smoke. What ever works right?
I know the dreams are from sleeping with the patch on but that is what I was told to do so I do it. Would I jump off a bridge if someone told me too...NO. Would I smoke if someone offered me one .. the answer would be a resounding YES. Would I eat a large plate of fries if I could.. can I get a Hell yeah!!!! I want fries and I want a cigarette but I also want to not be sick. I sure as hell am tired of being so fat too. I am at the point where I can't find legimate reasons for that cigarette or that bad bad food. I guess that is what will help me do this.
I am supposed to write a letter to cigarettes and smoking. Not sure where to begin with this one. If I were to write this right now, it would be a long distance love letter. So I think I will have to get to that one later when I can make it a Dear John letter.
I am off to shampoo every carpet in this house... does that count as exercise? Before you answer, have you seen my kiddo's bedrooms???
Oh please check out my friend Mikele's website. Mikele is a true inspiration to me in so many ways. Her website is fun and she shares some of her great recipes. I am waiting just waiting for her to post that recipe I have been killing myself to get ahold of.
http://mikele-rene.simplesite.com/
Mikele I love you girl. Always remember even when the chips are low you can still SHUFFLE a mean hand of cards and NEVER NEVER forget the STRAWS!! LOL!
10:15 am Breakfast two scrambled eggs with cheese
I had a good day for the most part yesterday. In the evening I got a little crazy. I had to chicken fajitas and instead of tortilla I wrapped them in lettuce but I still had that super hungry feeling. I will admit I was a bitch on wheels! I bet it was more desire for a cigarette then hunger. I ate a lemon with salt. That can't be too bad for my blood sugar right? I was told to eat a small snack before I go to bed to keep my body from thinking it is starving and prevent it from producing more sugar... oh hell I can't even pretend I know what all that means!! So I drank some wal mart brand v-8 kinda stuff. Maybe 4 ounces. But I guess it was not right cause ummm 237 for the morning is really high. They want it around 112.
So I got pissed off. I felt hungry and still I have a high reading? Maybe I need more exercise at night? If anyone has a clue please let me know!
I finally got to sleep around midnight. That is when the "fun" started. The dreams were amazing, weird, fun, and just plain old odd at times. So vivid I actually woke up sure I was married to Bret Micheals from Poison. Wasn't he in Poison? He isn't even my celebrity crush but oh well he is still hot when he isn't wearing eyeliner. THAT'S IT!!!! When I have a craving for a cigarette or food, I will just imagine kissing a guy wearing eyeliner! That will upset my stomach and I won't want to eat or smoke. What ever works right?
I know the dreams are from sleeping with the patch on but that is what I was told to do so I do it. Would I jump off a bridge if someone told me too...NO. Would I smoke if someone offered me one .. the answer would be a resounding YES. Would I eat a large plate of fries if I could.. can I get a Hell yeah!!!! I want fries and I want a cigarette but I also want to not be sick. I sure as hell am tired of being so fat too. I am at the point where I can't find legimate reasons for that cigarette or that bad bad food. I guess that is what will help me do this.
I am supposed to write a letter to cigarettes and smoking. Not sure where to begin with this one. If I were to write this right now, it would be a long distance love letter. So I think I will have to get to that one later when I can make it a Dear John letter.
I am off to shampoo every carpet in this house... does that count as exercise? Before you answer, have you seen my kiddo's bedrooms???
Oh please check out my friend Mikele's website. Mikele is a true inspiration to me in so many ways. Her website is fun and she shares some of her great recipes. I am waiting just waiting for her to post that recipe I have been killing myself to get ahold of.
http://mikele-rene.simplesite.com/
Mikele I love you girl. Always remember even when the chips are low you can still SHUFFLE a mean hand of cards and NEVER NEVER forget the STRAWS!! LOL!
Monday, February 11, 2013
Working Toward a Brighter Future.
9:42 am Morning glucose reading.....245
10:02 am 60 units of 70/30 Novolog
10:15 am 1 cup coffee with sweet and low (YUCK)
10:17 am Smoked last Cigarette and applied a Nicotine Patch (God help me PLEASE)
10:30 am Breakfast 1/2 cup Special K with red berries 1/4 cup whole Milk
12:30 pm after breakfast glucose reading 255 (yikes!!!!)
1:30 pm lunch Hamburger patty with cheese and tomato wrapped in lettuce.
Ok so what is this all about? Well hold on to your britches I am about to tell ya'll. I have a plan!!! Yes once again this mini mind of mine has come up with a plan!!!
My blood sugars are too high like out of this world high. Average of 500. Yeah how the hell am I still alive. I think it is because I am so used to being this high that my body is assuming it is normal. Well normal it is not, suicide it what it is.
I have two beautiful, wonderful little children that I love more then anything in this world and I want to see my grandchildren someday so I have to live! Often I ask myself what kind of life will I actually have if I can not eat a big greasy cheeseburger with fries? The answer is I will have a life, and that is the most important thing.
Ok so enough of the "feel sorry for me please bologny" on to my plan!
My plan is to blog all of my numbers and readings and what I consume, to see if i actually see and feel a difference. I will call Dr. G's office today and make an appointment for extactly 3 months and one week. In the three months I will go and do blood work. The extra week is to allow time for Dr. G. to receive test results. My last visit with him was not pleasant. I cried and he was snappy. This appointment was after an emergency room visit for chest pain. It was not a heart attack nor was it to do with my heart. It was costochondritis or something like that. Anyway H was snappy with me. I can see why he is frusterated with me. I was really upset and actually left thinking OMG I will find another Dr. But the fact of the matter is that I like him and I trust him. I can also see his frusteration with me. I don't want him to be "done with" me. I do however want to show him I can do this. So in three months and one week I want to see that he is happy with me. But above all that I want to see it myself, do it for myself and my family.
There are a few reasons that I have decided to blog this:
1. The typing will keep me from wanting to smoke a cigarette. As long as I keep my head on this it should make it easier for me. Whatever works right?
2. I know my friends! I know you will hold me accountable. I need that from you all. Push me, make me mad, make me cry I will thank you for it before it is all over. I don't like to fail in the eyes of others and that is what will keep me going. I am going to publish here everything truthfully. If I falter and have a piece of of chocolate cake, feel free to make me feel as quilty as you can. Put aside the fact that I am not very sensitive ha ha ha, and give you your best lecture.
3. I want to quit smoking and fix my blood sugars for Kristina and Kristopher (Ticky), my babies. They are so little, 3, and 4, and they think I am Super Momsie! I want to live forever for them, I want to set a good example for them. I want to teach and show them a healthy way to eat since this diabetes thing is a bit heredary too.
Now I have already given up sugared sodas, pasta and potatoes. Bread too but yeah that was not hard at all since I rarely ate bread anyway... oh wait tortillas is the same thing... OOPSIE!!! I will have to work on that one!
Please know I am not perfect and I will fall at times, I promise to pick myself up and try try try again. I will exercise more. Let us not forget I will not be smoking threw all of this either. Today is my first day with this, once again god help me. Well he did send me an angel. In the middle of this blog I called my husband crying the blues he assured me I could do this, Then just when I was about to search the house for a cig butt, My angel called from the Tobacco quit line. We spoke for 15 minutes and she gave me some help with triggers and talked me down. So still tobacco free since this morning! Every small victory helps with addiction.
If you are someone you know is trying to quit smoking call: 1-800-784-8669 for replacement products and help.
Well I am gonna call it for now. Please stick with me on this I need you!
Love and hugs,
Barb
10:02 am 60 units of 70/30 Novolog
10:15 am 1 cup coffee with sweet and low (YUCK)
10:17 am Smoked last Cigarette and applied a Nicotine Patch (God help me PLEASE)
10:30 am Breakfast 1/2 cup Special K with red berries 1/4 cup whole Milk
12:30 pm after breakfast glucose reading 255 (yikes!!!!)
1:30 pm lunch Hamburger patty with cheese and tomato wrapped in lettuce.
Ok so what is this all about? Well hold on to your britches I am about to tell ya'll. I have a plan!!! Yes once again this mini mind of mine has come up with a plan!!!
My blood sugars are too high like out of this world high. Average of 500. Yeah how the hell am I still alive. I think it is because I am so used to being this high that my body is assuming it is normal. Well normal it is not, suicide it what it is.
I have two beautiful, wonderful little children that I love more then anything in this world and I want to see my grandchildren someday so I have to live! Often I ask myself what kind of life will I actually have if I can not eat a big greasy cheeseburger with fries? The answer is I will have a life, and that is the most important thing.
Ok so enough of the "feel sorry for me please bologny" on to my plan!
My plan is to blog all of my numbers and readings and what I consume, to see if i actually see and feel a difference. I will call Dr. G's office today and make an appointment for extactly 3 months and one week. In the three months I will go and do blood work. The extra week is to allow time for Dr. G. to receive test results. My last visit with him was not pleasant. I cried and he was snappy. This appointment was after an emergency room visit for chest pain. It was not a heart attack nor was it to do with my heart. It was costochondritis or something like that. Anyway H was snappy with me. I can see why he is frusterated with me. I was really upset and actually left thinking OMG I will find another Dr. But the fact of the matter is that I like him and I trust him. I can also see his frusteration with me. I don't want him to be "done with" me. I do however want to show him I can do this. So in three months and one week I want to see that he is happy with me. But above all that I want to see it myself, do it for myself and my family.
There are a few reasons that I have decided to blog this:
1. The typing will keep me from wanting to smoke a cigarette. As long as I keep my head on this it should make it easier for me. Whatever works right?
2. I know my friends! I know you will hold me accountable. I need that from you all. Push me, make me mad, make me cry I will thank you for it before it is all over. I don't like to fail in the eyes of others and that is what will keep me going. I am going to publish here everything truthfully. If I falter and have a piece of of chocolate cake, feel free to make me feel as quilty as you can. Put aside the fact that I am not very sensitive ha ha ha, and give you your best lecture.
3. I want to quit smoking and fix my blood sugars for Kristina and Kristopher (Ticky), my babies. They are so little, 3, and 4, and they think I am Super Momsie! I want to live forever for them, I want to set a good example for them. I want to teach and show them a healthy way to eat since this diabetes thing is a bit heredary too.
Now I have already given up sugared sodas, pasta and potatoes. Bread too but yeah that was not hard at all since I rarely ate bread anyway... oh wait tortillas is the same thing... OOPSIE!!! I will have to work on that one!
Please know I am not perfect and I will fall at times, I promise to pick myself up and try try try again. I will exercise more. Let us not forget I will not be smoking threw all of this either. Today is my first day with this, once again god help me. Well he did send me an angel. In the middle of this blog I called my husband crying the blues he assured me I could do this, Then just when I was about to search the house for a cig butt, My angel called from the Tobacco quit line. We spoke for 15 minutes and she gave me some help with triggers and talked me down. So still tobacco free since this morning! Every small victory helps with addiction.
If you are someone you know is trying to quit smoking call: 1-800-784-8669 for replacement products and help.
Well I am gonna call it for now. Please stick with me on this I need you!
Love and hugs,
Barb
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