Wicked Dreams and Bret Micheals

10:00 am Morning Blood Glucose   237  (what the hell??)
10:15 am Breakfast two scrambled eggs with cheese



I had a good day for the most part yesterday. In the evening I got a little crazy. I had to chicken fajitas and instead of tortilla I wrapped them in lettuce but I still had that super hungry feeling. I will admit I was a bitch on wheels! I bet it was more desire for a cigarette then hunger. I ate a lemon with salt. That can't be too bad for my blood sugar right? I was told to eat a small snack before I go to bed to keep my body from thinking it is starving and prevent it from producing more sugar... oh hell I can't even pretend I know what all that means!! So I drank some wal mart brand v-8 kinda stuff. Maybe 4 ounces. But I guess it was not right cause ummm 237 for the morning is really high. They want it around 112.

So I got pissed off. I felt hungry and still I have a high reading? Maybe I need more exercise at night? If anyone has a clue please let me know!

I finally got to sleep around midnight. That is when the "fun" started. The dreams were amazing, weird, fun, and just plain old odd at times. So vivid I actually woke up sure I was married to Bret Micheals from Poison.  Wasn't he in Poison? He isn't even my celebrity crush but oh well he is still hot when he isn't wearing eyeliner.  THAT'S IT!!!! When I have a craving for a cigarette or food, I will just imagine kissing a guy wearing eyeliner! That will upset my stomach and I won't want to eat or smoke. What ever works right?

I know the dreams are from sleeping with the patch on but that is what I was told to do so I do it. Would I jump off a bridge if someone told me too...NO. Would I smoke if someone offered me one .. the answer would be a resounding YES. Would I eat a large plate of fries if I could.. can I get a Hell yeah!!!! I want fries and I want a cigarette but I also want to not be sick. I sure as hell am tired of being so fat too. I am at the point where I can't find legimate reasons for that cigarette or that bad bad food. I guess that is what will help me do this.

I am supposed to write a letter to cigarettes and smoking. Not sure where to begin with this one. If I were to write this right now, it would be a long distance love letter. So I think I will have to get to that one later when I can make it a Dear John letter.

I am off to shampoo every carpet in this house... does that count as exercise? Before you answer, have you seen my kiddo's bedrooms???

Oh please check out my friend Mikele's website. Mikele is a true inspiration to me in so many ways. Her website is fun and she shares some of her great recipes. I am waiting just waiting for her to post that recipe I have been killing myself to get ahold of.

http://mikele-rene.simplesite.com/

Mikele I love you girl. Always remember even when the chips are low you can still SHUFFLE a mean hand of cards and NEVER NEVER forget the STRAWS!! LOL!